"Everybody is fine, except me" I don’t know why I think like this, when I happened to see the title of a Tamil movie ‘Yaavarum Nalam’.
When I say that everybody is fine, except me, you may think that I’ve been suffering a lot and something must be haunting me. You may also think that this girl is pessimistic. She is going to tell something which must be demotivating. Whatever you think, I’m not going to bother.
My words may sound self appreciative or a kind of self marketing. Because, I’m going to tell about myself. Let me come to the topic ‘My last run’. Am I a brain tumor patient or a cancer patient coming in Indian cinema? No, I’m not. Am I going to die shortly? I’ve no answer for this. Did I commit any crime for which I’m running away? Mm... Not sure. Then, why this title? Most of the time, I couldn’t guess whether I’m alive or dead. So, I couldn’t identify myself with what is happening now. So, I’m just rolling back my memory to find out who I’m. I don’t know whether I’ll succeed in this last run.
When I was born, how I was? When did I open my eyes? Did my birth give happiness to my parents? Did I cry when I came out of my mother’s womb? I don’t remember these things. Yet, I remember almost all the incidents happening from my childhood to date. Good memory is not always good. I would like to have complete amnesia or at least selective amnesia. Why? I’m haunted by memories, both sweet & sour! Why the hell, I remember anything and everything.
To be continued.. (I need more time to write more... :p)
